amazingly, this would only be my third blog for the year and it's already going to be march soon. no matter how many times i say it or hear it from someone else, i still can't believe how fast time flies. feels like it's only the start of the year and before i know it, 3 months have flown past. this semester is especially hectic for me but i do not know the reason why. i've had so much planned for the year but now it seems that all my plans are gonna go down the drain. it would be amazing enough if i manage to stay in the robotic competition being held and also join in the project under a certain dr liew in uniten.
for the robotic competition, well it's kinda like a game of basketball and we've gotta come up with bots (auto and manual) to play the game. initially i thought it would be fun and challenging but now that i realized how little i know, i'm beginning to learn how tough it actually is. as for the project under dr. liew, ermm... i'm not so sure yet as to the objective of the research. all i know is the fact that i'm gonna be learning a hell lot more from him about aviation practically than i ever would learn in any other classes in uniten. whether i make it through or not, we'll just have to wait and see.
and something else... although everything is getting better (my life in uniten, studies etc) i somehow wanna get more in touch with my emotions. especially my negative emotions (depression, anger etc). i feel like it's the only thing that gives me the passion to keep on writing. although that would mean all my articles would be on the darker side, but at least i will be able to write. i haven't wrote for quite sometime now and i do miss writing a lot.
another thing that i really missed - FOOTBALL! it's tough getting enough people to play it and to make matters worse, half of my friends do not enjoy playing it. man, i've gotta get the right group of friends! however, i would have to say, even if i meet the right people, i still wouldn't be able to play at least for a couple of months. my right knee hurts like hell right now thanks to an old injury. i don't know how long it would take for it to heal but i hope it's soon. really miss slamming the ball into the back of the net. glorious feeling!
last but not least, an update on my relationship. actually, this would be a short msg to ly. our relationship has been going on for so long now (5 years) that everything felt routine. our phone calls, our dates... even our hugs and kisses lack passion... it's been a tough couple of weeks or was it months? and perhaps we both have changed. the way we see our future, the way we value certain things in life. you want it simple but i've got a complicated, weird way of thinking. i miss the times when we could just talk and laugh about everything. that feeling seems to have evaded us. i dun wanna live in the present, thinking of past memories. i want to live it. i need to.
however, for the past few days, things seemed to be getting better, albeit slowly. i know you do not want to rush things, and i, myself find it more comfortable maintaining our relationship like this, with minimum commitment. at least for the moment, just to steady the ship through the storm. i'll let you be the captain of the ship for now ok? we'll go at your speed. i know you are tired of arguing. so am i. it still hurts to hear you cry. as you've said before - let's take things slow. one day at a time. but my love for you will always remain true. i love you, no matter what.
hmm.. it's getting personal... guess i'd better stop here. actually it doesn't matter, no one reads my blog anyway... =)
